For those who aren't familiar with Dominion of the Moon, it was the name of the self-made fan-club that I had made on May 31, 2013, making that about eight years ago from today.
I bring it up to announce that I will be closing it down.
Why? Many reasons, but it mainly boils down to realizing my own selfish motives for making it and how redundant the club is now.
Yes, I say selfish: I confess that when I first made that club, there was some degree of insecurity that went into making it, as anyone who was anybody as a DeviantArtist had a fan-club: Etsuko Ajibana, Gis Hidaka, KeikoNoritsu, etc. etc. I have reason to believe now that (at the very least, part of me) wanted to be a part of that and arguably feel a bit more important than I really was.
In addition to remembering something that someone had said, I started to remember why I got into all of this to begin with. I didn't write to get attention: I wrote because I wanted to. In many respects, I still write because I want to, but I feel like I do my best when I come from a place of desire while at the same time giving it my best.
All I ask is that you please understand and respect my decision on this. Just like my fan-fiction and my occasionally crippling insecurities, I'm not perfect, and I'd like to at least do a little better each time. I'm not saying that having the club was a full-on mistake, but I am saying that I did learn something from the experience.
May God's love, grace, and mercy be with us all,
MoonspiritX🌙
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